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April 22nd, 2006
12:58 am - what is more important? Money or happiness?
So, I will write the good news first. Mark got into corrections. He leaves on April 27th to go for 2 months. I will see him on weekends is the good thing cause I will miss him terribly.
But the week before he leaves, the week before I will be lonely and miss him like crazy and we get into a horrible fight.
I happened to make the mistake of telling him that the company I am working for is really great and I want to stay with them. That didn't make him happy. He said it was a mistake and that we won't get any real money out of it. He got mad and stormed out to go to work. When he came home for lunch, he started yelling again and I got tired of not defending myself to him. We started screaming and I happened to make another mistake of telling him I wanted to be a biology major instead of chemistry. that really got him going. He says I can never make up my mind what I want to do (when this is the first time I have every thought about changing my major) and that I would make more money doing what I had first intentionally gone to college for.
I happen to mention that I will make jsut the same amount of money being a biology major and working in a BIOLOGY lab instead of CHEMISTRY lab but he didn't want to hear it. I screamed (in exact words): "I'm not like you I don't need money to make me happy. I don't want to sit in a job I hate cause it pays excellent." I also mentioned that it is alright for him to change careers 15 times but not me. He says it's cause he is always going for the more paying job and that we have to concentrate on the money aspect of things not what makes us happy. So 10 more minutes of screaming at eachother he storms out.
What he doesn't understand is that I grew up with next to nothing. My parents didn't have a lot of money and there were three kids and we grew up into three very happy adults and I DON'T NEED MONEY TO MAKE ME HAPPY!!! My father does perfectly fine at a job doing what he likes to do. Why can't I????
Mark grew up in a family where money was always at their disposal. so he thinks he needs money. I just don't get it.
It's like I can never make him happy and I just pissed him off severly. I just don't know what I'm goind to do. We haven't said more than two words to eachother in two days. He sleeps on the couch and me in the bedroom. tonight I have the couch and him the bedroom and in all honestly I haven't been eating or sleeping well cause of this. I am jsut so tired of fighting with him and I still dont know what to do.
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March 16th, 2006
09:28 pm - friday five
1) If you were to star in a movie, who would you want to be cast as your love interest?
Hmmm....Ewan McGregor he is so cute
2) What genre of movie would you most like to star in?
Horror/Suspense
3) What song would you insist be on the soundtrack?
Hmm...don't know the answer to that.
4) What would you wear to the premiere of your movie?
a really nice, sexy dress
5) Who would you thank in your Oscar acceptance speech?
My husband
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March 13th, 2006
06:23 pm - good day...or so i thought
I was having a really good day. I did some stuff that I needed to get done and hung out with EJ and Mel. And I'm not too bored on my vacation from work.
Until I got to my mother's house. I found out that the doctors at the hospital aren't giving my grandmother too much longer to live. They say taht she won't wake up from this one. She doesn't know anyone who goes to see her. I felt bad for my grandfather cause all he did was cry and she doesn't know it's him when he's there. these are my mother's foster parent's by the way, but I still consider them my grandparents and I love them very much.
I don't know what I will do without her. I guess get drunk.
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March 8th, 2006
07:09 pm - bored...with everything
so...nothing goin on...but then again, nothing ever really is. I am still jsut sitting at home doing not too much of anything until it's time for bed and then another fulfilling day at Taconic Farms. Luckily for me, next week is my vacation week. one full week paid vacation...I"m gonna love the time away from work, but talk about being bored. I will have to find some stuff to do. mark doesn't have it off so lonely and bored I will be.
On Wednesday I get to go to the fall out boy concert with Amber and her sister. that will at least be fun. WE can't wait to go. one more week. YAY! :)
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March 4th, 2006
10:39 am - the friday five
1. Who was your favorite all time teacher(s)?
hmm...it would have to be coach roden
2. What did they teach?
He taught PE and he was my track coach
3. What is your best memory from that class?
When I made my record jump in the triple jump
4. Did you ever have a crush on a teacher and if so who?
No, they were either too old or ugly
5. What is the craziest/wildest/weirdest thing you (or someone you know) ever did at school?
There are way too many to list.... I have some pretty crazy friends.
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February 25th, 2006
10:12 am - The Friday Five
1) When does liking someone a lot become loving that person?
2) Is there a job you would do for free, and is it your current job?
3) What is one person/thing that inspired you to take action of some sort?
4) Though you might not believe in it, would you like fate to exist?
5) What's the kindest thing that anyone has ever done for you?
1. I think it's when they do something really nice for you. When they show you in that little way that they love you too. I knew I loved the man who is my husband when he did something small and generaly insignificant, but it was important to me and I didnt' even have to tell him. He just knew.
2. I don't know if there really is any job I would do for free. The current one I have now, I enjoy and I do like it, but there is no way I would do it for free. I enjoy chemistry and that's what I am going to school for, but I'm not sure if I would do any chemistry job for free.
3. One person? You expect me to pick one person?? Well..after giving it considerable thought, I think it would have to be my godmother. She is always supportive of me and knowing that she has my back in any decision I make (if she agrees with it), helps me to know I can do anything and take action in anything I set my mind to.
4. Fate....yes I would like fate to exist. I'm not sure if I actually believe it is there, I'm still trying to think on that, but if it doesn't. I think it would be great if it did.
5. Mark's parents giving me a car. They hardly knew me I had only been dating their son for about a year and when my car broke down and I couldn't get anywhere, they gave me a car. Albeit a used car, but a car nontheless. it was very sweet of them.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: none
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February 22nd, 2006
06:59 pm - my enneagram test results.
the Questioner
Test finished! |
you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.
"I am affectionate and skeptical"
Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.
How to Get Along with Me
- Be direct and clear.
- Listen to me carefully.
- Don't judge me for my anxiety.
- Work things through with me.
- Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
- Laugh and make jokes with me.
- Gently push me toward new experiences.
- Try not to overreact to my overreacting.
What I Like About Being a Six
- being committed and faithful to family and friends
- being responsible and hardworking
- being compassionate toward others
- having intellect and wit
- being a nonconformist
- confronting danger bravely
- being direct and assertive
What's Hard About Being a Six
- the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
- procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
- fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
- exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
- wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
- being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations
Sixes as Children Often
- are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
- are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
- form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
- look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
- are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent
Sixes as Parents
- are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
- are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
- worry more than most that their children will get hurt
- sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries
Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages
You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose CY
Would you rather have chosen:
AY (EIGHT)
BY (FOUR)
CX (TWO)
CZ (ONE) |
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My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 0% on ABC |
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You scored higher than 57% on XYZ |
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February 18th, 2006
02:55 pm - Bored, bored, bored
Hey all. I guess Mark could tell something was up with me last night casue this morning he asked if I wanted to go out to a club with some friends from up the mountain. Of course I agreed...I'm tired of sitin at home. So we are supposed to go out to night. Yay!
I just got back from the spa. I decided I needed a little pick-me-up and decided to go get a manicure and some other stuff done. I love it there. Everyone is so nice. I go back in a couple weeks for my haircut and I am taking Anna to get her pedicure and manicure for her dance.
I was acting a little reminiscent last night and read a bunch of stories and poems that Mandalynn gave me for my 14th birthday present. I love them. They are really good. Kinda depressing, but good. Some are actually funny. :) One of the best presents I ever got.
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: My Last Breath//Evanescence
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12:55 am - Lonliness
Does anyone besides me ever just have a day when they feel absolutely alone? I know I am surrounded by people who love me, but I still feel alone. I was just sitting here thinking about it. I haven't talked to any of my real friends in a long time. It's sad when the only REAL friends I talk to still are my brother and my husband. I need to see these people more. I hate just sitting at home every weekend night with nothing to do. I feel depressed. I have such a dull life.
I always thought that when I was in my twenties that I would have a fun life...well...not really fun, my life is full of fun, but more.....active I guess. I need to get away. I think that's part of the problem.I do the same things every week and it's not exciting for me anymore. I need a nice getaway somewhere. But Mark doesn't want to take me anywhere and I won't go by myself...so I guess it's more waiting for me.
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February 3rd, 2006
10:52 pm - What gives him the right?
what gives tom the right to judge and stereotype people just cause he had to write a paper on them? He is retarded. I hope he fails the paper, and the class.
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January 30th, 2006
09:04 pm - I need a new car!!!
My car is acting up again. I hate it. My father-in-law says we have to start looking for anew one, but I kinda got attached to this one. :( Now I have to get rid of it. :( But I guess it's a good thing. I'll see what happens.
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Current Music: the Rock Show//Blink-182
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January 29th, 2006
01:08 pm - new computer
I got a new computer. mark bought it on impulse. :) Which was shocking for me. :) But I'm having fun playing with it. Nothing else new. I applied for another job within my company to work in the actual lab doing what I am going to school for. So hopefully I will get it. I'll let everyone know. :) ttyl.
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Current Music: of all the gin joints in the world//fall out boy
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December 8th, 2005
05:41 pm - New news. :)
Alright, so maybe I haven't been the best at keeping everyone updated. But MArk and I got married. I know a few of my friends know that already cause they were either in the wedding or there. ;) I have a new job and am currently working on my bachelors. I want to apologize to all my friends for not being there that often and for not talking to much to them. I do miss them all and if any of them read this, we need to get together and hang out. Even if it's just at my apartment. Let me know. you guys know my number. Love you all. :)
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October 7th, 2004
09:50 am - fun quizzes.
Which Jhonen Vaquez character are you? By EmReznor.
YAY!!! I got happy noodle boy!! he is my all-time favorite character!!! Look Mandalynn...I got happy noodle boy!!!
GIR // GIR is one of the most hilarious people on
the show. He's a robot and is SUPPOSED to be
helping Zim. His quote is "Can I be a
moongoose dog?"
Which Invader Zim character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
YAY i got Grr...I like this character.
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09:47 am - hey all
so....I am so bored right now. and sick...bored and sick..I hate that combination. today is my brother's birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY EJ!!! I can't believe he's 20 already.
i am being stalked at school. there is this crazy guy that thinks he can follow me around and talk to me all the time. I told mark about him and I'm sure he can't do much about him now cause he's down in staten island.
There really isn't anything new and I don't want to bore everyone.
Current Mood: bored
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September 17th, 2004
10:29 am - Hey everyone
Sorry I haven't really been on lately. I've been SOOOO busy with everything. I found out that I have a low grade abnormal cell in my body and that if not taken care of properly it could lead to cancer. So I've been dealing with THAT issue. and school has been hectic as usual. Except this semester is my toughest yet. I have the most idiotic precalc professor ever. He makes me feel like I am five and the most stupid person on the planet. My other classes are ok I guess.
My job is good. Being a dog bather at PetsMart isn't as bad as one would think. I actually like it. Except the temporary manager we have there now is a complete asshole. I will have to write about him later. I have to go now. Talk to everyone later. Adios
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August 10th, 2004
11:19 pm - Sad news for the family....
so...my hamster finally died on me last week. I had my brother bury her in the backyard. It was pretty depressing. I know it was just a hamster...but she was MY hamster...I've had her for 2 and a half years. :(
But other than that...nothing else really new. Mark leaves me soon. I have to spend as much time with him as possible. He goes to school soon. I guess it's good for him...but I'm REALLY going to miss him.
Work is going alright. Bathing dogs isn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Except when I get the pains in the ass who won't let me clip their nails. I want to kill them. :)
Other than that...nothing else really new. Adios for now. :)
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July 28th, 2004
05:15 pm - hey everyone...
Hi guys who read this. :) I just thought I would write and let everyone in on what is going on with me. Well..to start...my aunt did pass away two weeks ago. The funeral was the weekend before last. At least she isn't suffereing anymore. I was kinda upset. I felt and still do feel really really horrible that I did not go and see her before she passed away. I was planning on seeing her on the friday after she passed away...before I knew that she did.
Other than that, nothing much else is new. I am in this honors seminar for school in the fall and that seems pretty cool.
Well..i guess I will be going. I have some studying to do for my midterm on tuesday. Love you all and adios.
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July 14th, 2004
06:41 pm - So...
So news about me. :) I am now officially the owner of a REALLY nice Pontiac Grand Am that Mark's parents gave me AGAIN. they rock out loud. And so far it's the best car I've ever owned. :)
I also got a new job at PetSmart. I am the newest employee of the grooming department there. Which is awesome cause I start out at 7.00 and hour and if I want to become a groomer I can go to a school they will send me to and they pay for everything. I think it's awesome.
There's nothing else really new.
OH! On the down side, my aunt is really sick and dying. We don't give her that much longer to live. They just took her off the machines and it's just a matter of time now. I have to go see her but I'm a little scared to go by myself and I guess I'm a little scared to see her the way she is. But if I don't go I will regret it for the rest of my life. I know I will...so...I guess I have to suck it up and go see her...but I would really really appreciate someone going with me. Just at least sit in the waiting room and wait for me to come out...just drive up there with me and keep me company and hold me when I start to cry on the way home and cheer me up. If anyone wants to take up my offer...please call me or come to my house...or something. I would really like it. :)
Adios.
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June 6th, 2004
01:36 pm - Alright....how did I get this??
LOOK OUT!
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From Go-Quiz.com
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